120729 Post 2

well, some stuff over the weekend has set me thinking  is my smartphone killing me? i mean i use it practically more than the time i interact with my parents( yeah i noe its shocking but not that shocking after all...i mean most of us do that rite?)...

This compact, convenient, a must-have-if-not-i-lose-out-item is like sucking my life AWAY...yeah i do lots of stuff with it but then again...my time, my PRECIOUS time. i am waving goodbye to it, unknowingly...which is horrible. And i look like some retarded pig laughing away at my phone( yeah i am into those kpop stuff) and my parents say i look crazy. A mad woman( just that i dont have exploded air fro hair)

Gahhh...life is so...bad

In fact time is the worst present to us, human. We might think now that hey, I have like a few more decades to live and thats like how long? But time flies like theres no tomorrow and in the blink of an eye you could be a withered old hag lying on some bed, weak, beaten by those days you have been through...

In the blink of an eye, I am sitting here, typing, as a teenager. I bid farewell to those good old childhood days, said goodbye to Childrens' Day and said HI to Youth Day...

In the blink of an eye, I am thirteen, and thinking back, what have i done in this past thirteen years? Last year, i was mugging like crazy, like theres no tomorrow for PSLE and now...I am bored...well secondary life is different and your parents aint treat you like a kid anymore, I get to take the house keys(sometimes if emergency)...

I wish I had a time machine, and go back to those days and do something more meaningful, but i dont have one. People say " say I love you" to those close ones before you regret but its all too mushy for me. Yeah I know i love my parents, my sibling, my grandparents, but its just not me to say those stuff to them...

So I'll say it here instead
I love you<3

 

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sighs... my mum, she's talking about how jap class(third language classes) are good and that it's a RARE opportunity and if i regret and wanna learn it next time it's gonna cost a bomb. Yeah i noe, but it's like wasting 3HOURS of my life for 40 plus weeks=to 120hours wasted. she says i can only quit after 1 year when I finally found the WITHDRAWAL FORM, something i found diligently( which is once in a blue moon) without any distractions. Youtube, twitter, all thrown to the back of my mind, with only WHERE IS THE WITHDRAWAL FORM in my head. practically flashing. And now, all my hopes and bright sun rays I saw are GONE. Its a dark alley right now...everything looks so dark, no gleam of hope...:(

120718 random thoughts now

Sometimes I wonder why am I me. Shouldn't I belong in another world in the outer space, as a shining blue star. Am I some of the lucky ones that got the chance to experience life on world, as to why i could be able to sit here now and type...if i am, then shouldnt i treasure the time that i have on earth, experience everything that i can, from what i fear, hate, dislike to what i really love? or what? is everyone of us sent to this place for a meaning? are we sent here with some sort of mission, something that we carry out unknowingly. or are we are programmed? as in what we are going to do on earth are all programmed, including me typing here, to help someone somewhere in this big mysterious universe? it has let me to think of many things. like is someone looking at us from someone all the time. if it is it kinda creeps me out...someone not one of us, different from anyone of us, someone that completely looks different from who we are...

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Just listened to super juniors mr removed for sexy free and single^^  DAEBAK! its like cd quality^^ way to go man~^^ listening to cnblue now! Great band too^^ sigh...storytelling preparation this week man:(((( i still havent prepared any of my props! GAHHHH why have student initiated assignments?! who created this?! NOOO!! [grumbles grumbles]

well it seems like today is not a good day after all. wasted half of my time at my frens hse. supposed to prepare for storytelling but didnt finish  :P and my dad just popped by and see wad i was doing...wtf man:( 

Wing<3